Ain't No Love....

"I hate all girls with alterior motives/that's why I'm 20 plus years old-no sons no daughters..." - Jay-Z Lucky Me, In My Lifetime Vol. 1

I normally don't quote cats on my shit because simply put, it's my shit. But I do have a genuine respect for this song because it tells the story of my life. It's funny how some women think that we are so damn stupid and don't see through their bullshit. Case in point, if you been paying attention to my past blogs, you can see the ups and downs of me and my relations with certain females in my life. Friends ain't friends no more, ain't no love, can't trust no one, and most importantly, you can't express your inside without getting some type of shit thrown at you from the outside. I hate to say this, but alot of yall women done fell off, for real. Caught up in this video life, thinking that everything revolves around you, and most recently seeking the "have gots" to boost your "have not" asses. The smart and sweet now choose the low and dirty, the honor student chooses the drug dealer, the cheerleader chooses the chickbeater, are yall catching my point? I wonder where are the good girls now? Last time I checked, I counted numerous ladies whom I've known for years that had the type of reputation that didn't get your ass talked about in church, beat the fuck up by dudes they so call love, but seem to cope with. After being the voice of one of the "good ones" the first thing out their mouth is "where's your girlfriend?" after saying that I'm single, the next line is either "I should've got you when I had the chance", or "that's not true cause you seem like you can make anyone happy". Now let me start with line 1. Let me explain something to yall (everyone of you ladies that is in this situation or have been). I was that cat who didn't sweat you while you wanted to be sweated, I was that cat who covered for the dog you wanted me to hook you up with, I was the dude who brought you flowers when your man was getting brain at the movies and told you he was out of town with parents, I was the shoulder to cry on, the "friend" that Chris Rock was talking about, what seperates then from now is the fact that I'm no longer that responsive to yall stupidity, when you say things like that, the first thing in my head is "What the fuck took you so long to realize that?" I never changed for anyone, I only grew up...some of yall haven't yet, still living like you're in high school. Now to line 2. Please do not give me the satisfaction of being with someone that you created in your head. Do not assume that because I am a nice guy, I am taken, because I am not. I sometimes think that I am too nice of a person, which is why I am single now. What confuses me is how that type of "guy" is so underrated that we have to act like an asshole to be noticed, or at least accepted by the ladies we are interested in. I don't know where this started, but it cost me alot in life to have to deal with people like that. I had my heart shattered twice by people who claimed they Loved me. Only 2 yall, but it was enough to put a brotha in a depressive state, change his life, and go through hell all at the same time. (Fuck you dudes who read this and say to yourselves "nah dog, ain't me." Bullshit, I'm just the muthafucka not scared to talk about it.). I've grown so tired of insensitive people that I rather die before I have to associate any of them into my life. The ones who like to forget all the good things that happened in the relationship, the impact on each others lives, the Love itself, all thrown away because a brotha has this or can buy you that, or can fuck this way or cooks that way, whatever it is. The ones who can't be honest with you because they so-called want to protect your feelings yet fucking kill whatever heart you have left by immediately going out with the next dude...the ones who call you crazy because they don't see them doing anything wrong because they underestimated what you felt for them. The ones who can give you every reason to stay with the fucked up dude, but give you every way to screw up the good one. This is what it all has come down to yall, for the 5% of yall who isn't like the above, I applaud you, for the ones I know, much love, you and I share a bond because I know what you have been through on your side of the fence. Same deal different gender.

To the other 95%... What you are reading is not a personal attack, or me pointing fingers, this is simply a PSA, a wake up call perhaps. Take a good look in the mirror, look back on that one you let get away, ask yourself "Was it all really worth it?" Chances are you will say no, but the ones who say yes, either has the right man, or woman to hold it down (most none at all). That person you let go is ok, trust me. I'm sure they will be responsive to you if you ever see them again, but I advise you to chill out with the "What had happened was," cause you might as well get ready to hit them with a shovel again if you still associate with the same cats they tried to warn you about. Enough about that

*K good idea for the Chicken site, PSA's...
Need sleep, third shift going on now, forgot to sleep during 2nd and only half of first.
Angela, thanks for breakfast this morning, you really made my day, good thing I helped make yours...
Melissa, how's our son (inside joke)
J* you update your blog like old people fuck, jump on it son!!!
Mickey look before you leap
Jennifer at Baystate, you still have my number if dude gets out of line, I know I no longer work there, but you my homegirl so my services are still free.
Tawonia, are you getting married or what?
Much love to 413, Firm Family, the 5 Elements, That kid dice who I happened to come out of retirement and tear a new asshole at the Club Cocktails freestyle battle unanimous for 3 rounds and I'm 26? Hmmmmmmm....
A-Clipse don't take it personal dog, your name just came up after this by coincedence. Much love.

I'm out, The Champ