Ain't This A Bitch.......

The original title to this one was "Come Clean", I changed it considering copyright laws and any hip hop head knows Jeru the Damaga needs dough right now so I changed it. These past couple of days have been somewhat confusing to me. You see, I have a friend who HAD a friend who needed some work put in, I then decided to accept this particular job, considering it was a friend of a friend and the situation called for my assistance. Well, this morning I get home and check my email to see that *K was trying to get at me to fill me in on this particular 'job' and the reasons behind it. Motive like a muthafucka, unfortunatley, I was tired as hell, and needed sleep. I kept the computer on just in case of any more future emergency messages and went to bed. I was woke with a call from someone I will call *KI*. She informs me that whatever it was that I agreed to, to abort and just listen. I did, and what she told me (yeah girl I was half asleep) I put it with what K* told me and guess what? Same thing, no changes. Not even the slightest change in words either. Something was starting to bug me, I mean really bug the shit out of me...

So now I have two stories that sound exactly alike, and one story who sounds just about as one sided as those Maury episodes when the girl is on the stage first. I'm not going to say that I was stuck in a position, because this was an easy decision to make. There will be no job done, I will use my weekend to do what I normally do. But on the subject, I do have to let some things get off my chest first.

To the person who gave me the job, just to let you know, If you read *K's blog (kaycee24.blogspot.com for the reference check) you see a line where I called you a slut, well after what I've heard, I don't think I was even as harsh as I could've been, so whatever sour feeling you have because I said that, guess what? You got off easy. I thought I told you not to take my kindness for weakness, sure you gave me legitimate reason to work, but you didn't give me the absolute truth behind your motives or your now decorated past. It took a friend and a woman whom I barely know to shed some light on things. 3 cousins??? I mean what the fuck? Let's be real for a minute, I didn't think you were serious with your obsessive flirting and all that, now I'm convinced if I lived anywhere in NY, not only would I have your address, but I would also have your man's work scheduele as well. Shit is crazy, you almost opened up a whole nother can of worms if this weekend had come to pass. I really don't think you have any idea what you were up against in trying to solve your little problem. Come to think of it, I wonder how you would've paid me, because last time I checked, you were unemployed. Hmmmmmm.

So what did this all cost? You knew *K for what 10 years? A decade, now a facade. If there is anything I know since I met *K, is that she is one of the most realist people I know, she brings to the table what most chicks lack and stays the same the whole time. I don't know yall's relationship for your past ten, but these past couple of months I knew she spoke highly of you. Like I do with the H20 element. Yet, what gets me is that you know her in and out, up and down, why in the hell would you put her in a position where she comes out looking like what the fuck? Now she has to wonder what the hell was actually real between yall for those years that past. Then again, considering the severity of the situation, I seriously doubt that she can trust you again. You fucked up. With both me and her, if I knew then, I would've told you no from jump, but you wasn't up front with me. Oh, and no, I don't think the line "well I'm not that innocent either" will help the matter. Shit, that was more vague than anything. You should've said something, come clean so to speak. Even if you did the worst dirt possible, only thing she can do is either help, or not help. Regardless of which she choose, you betta believe it wasn't gonna go without something to be said in return. You underestimated her..........either that or you used her, take your pick. What was accomplished doesn't really matter anymore huh? Ain't no one in the corner to help anyomore, that's your doing. I take it, when you were trying to IM me this morning what I now know was what you were going to tell me right? Too late.

For the record, I doubt that we will be in contact anytime soon.

To *K, I was never mad at you, not once. Thought never crossed my mind, I had nothing to be mad at you about. We friends, we Firm, if that ain't enough, then I don't know what is.

To *KI got-dammit, if you ever call me while I'm sleepin again chile.........

You know, I wanted to give my Love/Hate blog today, but priorities come first. Ain't that a bitch?
I'm out
Enjoy Life - after all, God gave you one.

Da Champ