Wholeness

You have to just enjoy knowing that there is someone outside of your family that can honestly look you in the eye and take control of your soul. A sense of wholeness comes over me each passing day that gets closer to seeing her. It's that overwhelming sense of anticipation, of wonder, of just knowing that she was coming and the significance of this particular weekend, all of this adding up to that one word....wholeness.

Yall want to know what that feels like from my side? Well, allow me to introduce that to you. You can almost compare it to being wealthy, simply because you feel as though you have no worries, then again you can feel like that knowing that inside someones heart, everytime it beats, you are on their mind. To know that with every waking moment, you have a whole day to share with that person, to grow and get to know and experience new things with that person, to find and explore things, to communicate, to reach new heights, to learn. All of this including the not mentioned love for self and yadda yadda yadda and you pretty much have what I feel in that one word....wholeness.

I envy some of yall sometimes, YES YOU the ones in relationships that are close distance. Yall who wake up every day and take yall love for granted. Wake up beefin and shit, arguing, finding new ways to one-up each other, all that extra shit and claim yall in love. I think about that alot and I wonder why is it that here we are actually doing it right and we have to settle for 7 states in between??? What's the fucking deal?

But enough about being angry (you can tell as I type this she isn't here anymore right?) this weekend I found myself somewhere else....I mean I was in Springfield, but my energy, my spirit, my whole soul was somewhere else....with her. We were together, and maybe she can tell you the place, cause I can't. But I will say, we were there, and we've never been there before. It was peaceful, and the funny thing is...we can always go back. Once again, wholeness.

As far as the actual things happening on this here earth, we did what we normally do. Talk, politic, sleep (well needed), enjoyed each other. Simply put, just have fun together. We hit the bench and got our workout on. (Get yall mind out da gutta) Baked cookies (somethings you just stick to), and although there was no omelets this time around. Waffles are just as good. Even shared letters, now there is a lost art in love these days. Not all affection has to come from Tiffany's you know. But for real though, if you know where I'm coming from fellas, know that when you look at your woman, and just don't talk but look....that feeling that takes over you inside (not your dick - doofus) and just make you say "God, YOU did it this time" guess what, that's wholeness for that ass dammit.

It has got to feel so good to feel so damn loved
Thank you baby....

Like I said yall.....wholeness

I'm out, yall be cool
DaChamp