Tick Tick Tick......

Clock still ticking on the time bomb planted in me...

Woke up with things on my mind. Over the past few weeks has been draining on the mental. Sometimes you sit back and just think, sometimes too much or too little. Maybe I overthink too much, and that lands me in trouble simply because I draw conclusions that I don't want to. Yet my mind is open like the sky and when thoughts pour in, it tends to cloud my judgement over the facts.

It's called confusion, I know...we all suffer from it from time to time.

I do what I can to stay open on things simply because I try and look at all possibilities before making a decision. It's like bringing up the ball and seeing your teamates setting up something, you want to hit that guy who's wide open at the 3 line, but lil man is posting up something serious and then there's the guy who hasn't scored in like 2 games who just needs one more jumper to score, all these options and I look at them all, good or bad. It would be hard for me to shut down one of my boys because others made him look like garbage. I picked him so he could do his thing, and seeing that we want to win, I'm going to stay with him until we do.

If I keep him and not use him, who's to say that I can criticize? Or even say that he's garbage? I can't say shit til I see him play, I don't give a damn if Mike himself told me that he can't play for shit, until I see for myself, he can play as much as he wants. The feeling he would get knowing that I trusted him to help us win and I never bothered to see would he could do is fucked up. He would question why I picked him anyway, and wonder about his value to the team. He didn't play for many cats and this team was supposed to be real to him. I'm not a coach, but I've sat where he sat and had the same feelings, like how can you assume I'm garbage because someone ELSE told you? Even if that wasn't the case, instead of seeing for yourself, you shut THEM down? That could be your star player, and they already proved themselves to you in practice.

What bothers me is that the coach tends to blame the player, they don't have to sit and listen to anything, they have their job already, they are already getting paid. It's the player who has to fight for their spot and stay there. If the coach was any good at all, they play em all THEN make their decisions based on everything the see...

not what they heard.

I'm out yall be cool
daChamp