Live and Let Live.....or Die

"....still writin' and recitin." - TdC

I have been under the weather lately. Actually under the world for real. I have bouncing between 100 and 103 for a temp for about a week and a half now. Fortunately, with this post that I'm writing, my temp has fallen to 98.7. So I guess I can touch the keys on the computer again...

With that said, I'm dealing with my pops who over the weekend shot himself at an attempt on suicide. Not without pulling out on my half brother first....

I was shot by my father when I was alot younger....now my younger brother has to see the barrell of a gun by the same person, what kills me is that he knows what happened to me. Why is there a sequel I don't know...all I know is that my brother is on some shit now, and after visiting my pops in the hospital (yes I know how to live and let live) I was met with the reality that no matter how much you can forgive some things you just can't forget, and some things you are just reminded of too much.

Alot of the things I have accomplished in my life all came from emotional letdowns that damn near sent me off into a tailspin. Call me a survivor if you want to. My determination comes from not trying to emulate the people in my life who ain't about shit. My will and my strength comes from within. I had no male role models in my life so I had to figure some things out for myself.

I'm still learning, and fortunately some people understand that. Life goes on for some, for me? I just keep on keeping on. Haven't stopped then, and with the way my life is going....performing on stage, crossing fools at the job, kids at the job keeping me on my toes, and most importantly some good friends in my light all have me on point and I feel like...

I have nothing to lose, but everything to gain.

With or without him.

I'm out, yall be cool....I am.

daChamp