Merry Go Round......

All of a sudden the merry go round is too fast....
thoughts jumbled together make soup of the brain
mixed emotions go up and down slowly
while I look up to figure out why
I see pictures I didn't create
confuse myself more with not the solution
but the development of me in this state
I close my eyes and wonder if this particular state
will be the key to open that one door
that leads me to my fate
I want to talk to others who can understand
yet most of these people can't relate
So I distance myself so they can't catch my confusion
like a cold it's contagious
so please don't misconfuse the hate
I reach over and stare at the orange bottle
filled with answers followed by milligrams
who can't talk back to me
but allow me to zone out and not give a damn
damn that orange bottle
do I need it, or is it a sign that i need to be coddled?
sat down and talked to
about shit that I go through
the merry go round is too fast still
I need to chill
close my eyes again
and let these thoughts spill
along with my emotions
drown them out with my evian water
hoping that these little wonders can control
these pictures of bad thoughts that I ponder
I find happiness in those who loved me best
who can hear and feel what's beating under my chest
and who isn't concerned with the softness of the breast
nevertheless isn't stressed about my thought process
but can listen to the words coming out of my mouth
no matter how confusing it sounds
just let them come out
and at least slow down this merry go round ride
and open my eyes and see what I want
with no questionable thoughts on the side....

Slow down, be easy....trouble don't last always....

TdC